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I've found some new things about Logan, some of which surprised me greatly. The first is that she's not any of the versions of her character that I've ever written about, but another who is unique to the world of my doll family. Also, she's not being sarcastic when she calls me Ma. She means it, and likes me. She's a wildheart and a lone soul, but very caring and protective of the other 'kids' in her family. She discovered that she had paint on her toenails the other day and I expected an explosion, but all I got was a wry grin and a
twinkle in the dark eyes that only exsist thus far in my mind. She refused to spend Christmas day with the other dolls, saying that she'd rather wait to do such things until she was completed and dressed, but I think she just wanted to be alone with her memories.

Mara is another wildheart, though she's much much younger than Logan. A tiny, elf-like being just fully stepped over the line into womanhood, she made a nich for herself even before she was fully out of the box and is filling it with all her might. She gives the impression of being tough as nails, but warm and caring. She and Logan and Ruhamah and (surprisingly) Molly understand one another perfectly.

It's a new thing for me as a writer to see a character before I know who or what they are, but I think it's helping me with visualizing the characters in my stories, helping to tear down barriers that I didn't know were there and allowing me to feel the 'people' that I write so that they in turn can be felt by those who read of their exploits and trials.

Thank You, Jesus!

Mara

Dec. 23rd, 2005 08:14 pm
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I went looking for the 3" GI Joe action figure that I want today, and couldn't find him at any of the stores I visited. Instead, I impulsively bought the Teen Trends doll that I've looked at a few times over the past year(Kiana or whatever she was called). I felt that she was only a visitor, something to play with till I tired of her and then passed her on.

But now I'm looking at her, and hearing her character talking to me, and I'm wondering if she's actually one of my children. She sends out such a feeling of calm, warm-hearted independance every time I look at her, and the fact that she's a strung doll is utterly fascenating to me. She's about the same size and shape as the BJD I was thinking of getting (but have decided against yet again), with lovely big feet complete with toes (so rare on Mattel dolls).

She's speaking to me, just like my Jabez and the others who visit in the travel doll group speak to me, stirring my imagination and causing an answering response of storytelling and character formation. She's definately no thirteen year old, though. More a young woman of perhaps nineteen. I could imagine her talking as I got her free from all the ties, not just to me, but to Jabez, who's been looking sad lately. And now she's sitting on the bed with her shoes and jacket off, watching me type with a warm smile and gently covering one of Jabez's feet with her hand.

I'm still not sure yet, but perhaps Mara is here to stay.

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